A little over two years ago I started carrying a note with me inside of my wallet. I keep it behind my license – just in case. In case for what? Well, in case something happens to me and I’m unable to talk.
I keep it tucked between my license and body donor ID card. I figured those would be the two cards people would want to see most – unless somebody was robbing my unconscious body. Not cool people, not cool. Some may call me paranoid or morbid, but I like to think of it as being prepared. Death doesn’t scare me as much as not being able to say goodbye. And having so many people I care about in other states, I realized that I would never know if something happened to them.
At the time I wrote this, the boyfriend and I were, well I guess we were always in different states. He was in Boston and I was in Chicago. I wanted someone to be able to tell him if something happened to me. So I made sure to include his name, phone number and a small message for him in my note. I wrote that I loved him before I told him. I knew that I would some day. I also included one for my best friend Dan, giving him my cats, and my parents. I figure these are the immediate people who would need to know, they can spread the word from there.
But now that I’m looking at it, I wonder if I should update it. Do I keep the ex-boyfriend on there? Do I still want who ever finds it to know that I love him and that he needs to take breaks and live his life? Am I really sure that I don’t want to say something more along the lines of “Thanks for breaking my heart?” No no, I don’t want to do that.
I’m curious how often I should update this note. Who do I put on it? Should I leave my blog info so my mom can notify my blogger friends of my unfortunate demise? When writing a message to those I do include on the note, what do I say? It’s difficult thinking of your last words to somebody.
What would you say? Do any of you carry these “just in case” notes with you?